not_a_king

If anyone wants me to ask them questions......... just ask?


1. Where are you now?
I live in an apartment that I share with my sister. It's actually the same one I lived in before I went to Cherry Hollow.

2. I know you're a fan of reality TV. Have you ever considered trying out for one of those shows?
Not really. Sure, I think it would be cool to be on one............ but they wouldn't even think about accepting a guy like me........ so why even bother?

3. Do you feel like you got anything out of your time at Cherry Hollow?
Not really, no. But I wasn't there for very long............

4. If you could have any superpower, what would your ability be?
The ability to morph shapes..... that would be cool.........

5. Do you have, or have you ever had, any pets?
My sister loves pets. On my own I had a beta fish... then once she moved in, we had a beagle, a parakeet, some ferrets, and a tarantula.

I hate this season.............. it's like a giant, flashing panic attack waiting to happen......

It's the busiest time of the year for church, too............ people get married, there are baptisms, and then, of course, all of the Christmas and holiday masses..................

I don't want to go out........ I want to hibernate until spring...............

I'm really not looking forward to the holiday season............ it is my least favorite time of year........ everyone is supposed to be happy and together and all of that........ it makes me sick to my stomach....... I hate feeling like everyone is watching me........ specifically at dinner time........

Ruthie and I are supposed to go to Nan and Pop's house for Thanksgiving dinner but I think I'll just stay home.......... they are so sweet and have always been understanding......... but you know...... I went to Cherry Hollow and I should've probably got better.......... but I didn't. I'm still super fat.......... so I don't really want to show my fat face at dinner, where they'd probably only think about how disgusting and gross I am...................

I hate the holidays..........

Obama won the presidential election. Maybe one day the world will accept fat people, like me.............. but I doubt it.

Today is the first day of autumn.........


To be honest, I really don't like the fall. I like when the trees are bright and full of life. When the leaves fall off it looks like they are skeletons...... too skinny and brittle..... I wish I could be like that, so I guess maybe I just don't like fall because I am selfish........... And I hate the sound of leaves crunching under my feet....... I feel like they crunch way too loud and everyone can hear me coming.... not like they couldn't already...............................

The new season of Kitchen Nightmare is pretty cool......... I wish I were as awesome as Chef Ramsey. I am looking forward to another episode of House, MD tomorrow night. Last night's Unwrapped was pretty cool...................... I discovered a site called hulu.com which makes it way too easy for me to see everything I missed while I was at Cherry Hollow.......................

Ruthie's been staying out a lot lately....... I think she wishes I were still in the institution.............

I don't really celebrate independence much..... I guess if you mean on the fourth of July. Sometimes I watch fireworks from the living room window..... Ruthie always liked to go out and see them..... with friends......... or her boyfriend. I've never gone though..... Everyone would've probably watched me instead....... and besides...... if something were to happen.... like, a spark fell out of the sky.............or something............ I probably wouldn't be able to run away as fast as everyone else and they would all probably just think about how much I am a fat, retarded idiot for coming to a fireworks show........ so, yeah, I just stay home.


Once I made hamburgers and hot dogs for me and Ruthie........... and I gave some to the dogs..... they really liked them. I should eat less hot dogs...................

I'm such a fat loser......

I used to have a deadjournal years ago... I had it for a long, long time......... But apparently when I was at Cherry Hollow it got deleted............ I'm not sure why 'cause they usually don't delete old accounts......... but they did.............. I've been meaning to make a new journal for a while but I haven't gotten around to it.......... so here it is........ not that anyone will read it........

I have been playing at church again....... but other than that I haven't done much...... I really don't think Ruthie is happy that I'm living at home again............ 'cause you know.......... I invade her private life........... I kind of wish I was still at Cherry Hollow............ but that's pretty weird......... who wants to live at an insane asylum....??? I guess I always knew I was pretty weird........

I'm pretty lonely...........


I'm watching the Olympics........... that's something I could definitely never do......... I could never have even a dream of doing any of this stuff.... oh well......